Cause my paralyzes and pains got too threatening and to avoid a paraplegia, I had to undergo an upper spine-surgery on Monday 8th of June. I thought I was on track again ...
But on Friday I took an ordinary walk and my right leg slipped due to dusty dry earth and my legs and the rest of me slipped downhill, several meters. I know from Ninjutsu how to fall, and I don't have any outer injuries inspite of rolling over several times ... However some hours later I realized, paralyzes started to return and incredible pain in legs, arms/hands and ... in the upper spine.
Had a horrifying dream (at least I thought it was "just" a typical drama-queen-dream) of how one of the implanted cages was breaking into my vertebral body and dangling on the other side. Well, it wasn't just a dream but a vision as has shown in hospital.
So I will need another spine-surgery on Friday 3rd of July and a long recovery time with my new "stiff-neck-friend". Seems, that, after all, I had a lot of "luck" ... I was told today, this fall could have easily been my last or have led straight into tetra-/paraplegia.
Anyhow ... wishing I had not chosen to take a walk last Friday.
This is the power of fate and now I know what the "Blasted Oak" in my Greenwood-reading was trying to tell me ... a (too) late insight however ... ;).
In terms of blogging and composing ... please bear with me, light a candle here and there for my smooth recovery, if you feel inclined to do so ... hoping to survive and recover soon, YES!
Also, I do not know how to pay my upcoming bills, as due to Corona and now due to my spine-problems I was/am not able to perform live-music, -poetry and -rituals nor give readings ... but I do have a lot of additional medical bills to deal with. I'd be grateful if you could support my survival with a donation! After my recovery I will be more than ready and happy to continue working for you ... that is providing readings/counselling/lectures and of course blog-entries. This however will require some time and homepage-updating, which won't be possible for me at the moment.
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Photos © Ann-Uta Beißwenger 2020: 1. Taken from Greenwood-Tarot by Mark Ryan and Chesca Potter 1996. 2. AnU with stiff-neck-friend 2nd of July 2020
Across a stormy sea ... Vocals, E-Guitar, Bass & Drums, Soprano Flutes ...
Saturday morning it was and I wanted to continue studying my awesome book on language by Martin Heidegger. Anyhow ... then it started with this bass-line, joined by this awful beat, not willing to leave my mind. It didn't take long and my guitar sang to me, melodies joined in, some lyrics followed, synthesizer grooved along and yes my flutes wanted to comment ... Heidegger had no chance against this muses' musical army ....
Well then ... it took me 11/2 days (without doing anything else) to arrive at a version which I am (basically) ok with ... hope you enjoy. Keep on rocking.
So far my most challenging composition ... in terms of instruments played, arrangement and in terms of technical necessities ... E-guitar and Flute soli ... sail along ... revised version 3rd of March :).
Please note and respect: All Vocals, Lyrics, E-guitar, Soprano Flutes, Synthesizer, Drum-an'-Bass-Loops-Arrangement, Mix/Recording © Ann-Uta Beißwenger 2019
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