Cause my paralyzes and pains got too threatening and to avoid a paraplegia, I had to undergo an upper spine-surgery on Monday 8th of June. I thought I was on track again ...
But on Friday I took an ordinary walk and my right leg slipped due to dusty dry earth and my legs and the rest of me slipped downhill, several meters. I know from Ninjutsu how to fall, and I don't have any outer injuries inspite of rolling over several times ... However some hours later I realized, paralyzes started to return and incredible pain in legs, arms/hands and ... in the upper spine.
Had a horrifying dream (at least I thought it was "just" a typical drama-queen-dream) of how one of the implanted cages was breaking into my vertebral body and dangling on the other side. Well, it wasn't just a dream but a vision as has shown in hospital.
So I will need another spine-surgery on Friday 3rd of July and a long recovery time with my new "stiff-neck-friend". Seems, that, after all, I had a lot of "luck" ... I was told today, this fall could have easily been my last or have led straight into tetra-/paraplegia.
Anyhow ... wishing I had not chosen to take a walk last Friday.
This is the power of fate and now I know what the "Blasted Oak" in my Greenwood-reading was trying to tell me ... a (too) late insight however ... ;).
In terms of blogging and composing ... please bear with me, light a candle here and there for my smooth recovery, if you feel inclined to do so ... hoping to survive and recover soon, YES!
Also, I do not know how to pay my upcoming bills, as due to Corona and now due to my spine-problems I was/am not able to perform live-music, -poetry and -rituals nor give readings ... but I do have a lot of additional medical bills to deal with. I'd be grateful if you could support my survival with a donation! After my recovery I will be more than ready and happy to continue working for you ... that is providing readings/counselling/lectures and of course blog-entries. This however will require some time and homepage-updating, which won't be possible for me at the moment.
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Photos © Ann-Uta Beißwenger 2020: 1. Taken from Greenwood-Tarot by Mark Ryan and Chesca Potter 1996. 2. AnU with stiff-neck-friend 2nd of July 2020
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Livicated to the Blackberry King - blessed be!
Synthi, Vocals, Rattles, Lyrics, Komposition © Ann-Uta Beißwenger 2017
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