Like I have told you guys, I had to undergo another upper spine-surgery on Friday 3rd of July after my stupid fall the week before.
I knew this would be much more challenging than the 1st surgery had been ... . Both implants had to be taken out and be substituted by metal cages, plates and bone-substitutes. My vertebral body had to be restored as well.
Update 10th of August 2020:
I still have problems talking/singing/swallowing/breathing ... will need another check-up on this next week. It definitely sucks!
To cope with all this and distract myself from the current shit-uation in a creative way, I work on my new album "Sounds from Somewhere" which I hope to complete before I have to go to Rehab. Therefore I am in the process of rearranging and remixing some of the latest compositions.
Like in the course of producing my last album ...:
You might not find some of my compositions in this blog anylonger ... Sorry for this, but don't worry ... be happy! I have chosen them to refresh/rearrange/remaster for the upcoming album!
So far, I am really excited ... just have completed a new version of the former "Antares-Soundscape" and it really rocks! Promised!
There will be some completely new stuff as well. I have finished the master of my new, nerdy composition "The Dying of Water" (= working title) with my own real water-recordings, Vocoder/Synths, (real) Kalimba/Sansula and lyrics in Kiswahili, the latter being another of my favourite languages ...
It would be great, if you guys could support my compositions and survival with a donation!
More than ever I do not know how to pay my upcoming bills, as due to Corona and my spine-surgeries I was/am not able to perform live-music, -poetry and -rituals nor give readings ... but I do have a lot of additional medical bills to deal with. Therefore I'd be grateful if you could support my album-production and survival!
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CD-coverdesign and Photo © Ann-Uta Beißwenger, 10th of August 2020
Let's sacrifice the King to save the World(s) …
I guess our forefathers wouldn't have hesitated for long in a comparable situation: If powers and things turned too wild to cope with and whole communities and their survival were endangered in an unsurmountable way, ritual sacrifices of most valuable things and kings were arranged and celebrated. To appease forces, operating on a level not otherwise approachable by humans. To reinstall balance and grant survival of human communities.
In our world of today, this sounded like a strange, horror-movie-type idea – more so as we don't have that many kings (or queens), who'd qualify for a valuable sacrifice, if any, don't we?
Things and times change and a lot of layers and perspectives have been added to our minds and societies, since our ancestors roamed the lands.
But still, some things have not changed at all: We all want to survive the best and easiest way possible, that is without suffering too much and without loosing what is dear to us.
We feel the intrinsic will to survive: as an individual as well as a community and nation.
We have lost track of how to maintain balance on a larger scale, that is on a worldwide level. In fact it's almost impossible to achieve this: Most people don't even manage to keep up a basic balance in their own life, within their own communities or in their relationship with nature and natural resources. Life has become too multilayered and complex for most of us – there are simply too many options and pathways out there. To get some sort of overall overview and/or being able to consider all components in a given moment seems a task far too overwhelming.
Having to face a severe worldwide crisis, which does not differentiate between rich and poor, good and bad, south-west-east-north, … our deepest archetypical fears and behavioral patterns are revived.
Many refuse to look at the flip side of the “archetypal coin”: It might show perspectives, long forgotten, which possibly will pay off today, if (re)considered and adjusted to our present needs and challenges.
Our ancestors knew well about the ritual of sacrifice in order to maintain balance. Balance between communities, both seen and unseen by the human eye.
On our pretty long and colorful journey through the last two or three centuries we have filled the unseen realms with our human ideas. It is too difficult for us to accept, that some phenomena are invisible to human eyes. Especially if the unseen dares to enter our emotional scapes without introducing themselves to us beforehand.
That's why we have to confine “it” into colored cages, somewhere between black and white and lots of pink. In order to feel (fake-)safe or at least to make ourselves believe, we were in control of what we cannot see.
Our universe, that is, everything on and beyond our planet earth, is labelled according to shapes and features that are visible and therefore known to the human eye. Everything is categorized according to human values and perspectives. But I guess most inhabitants of this universe don't really care or even know about human values and perspectives – they just feel the consequences and outcomes of these human values and perspectives in one way or other.
This is – of course – just another view out of another human box. Obviously.
Kingship in our world of today is held and manifested by ideas. Most of these are centered around some sort of human supremacy and midgardian meaningfulness concept. Feeling superior to something or somebody functions as a kind of fluffy fleece which we can lay upon those nasty, time enduring, primordial fears.
These supremacy-concepts boil down to some narcissistic “humans are in charge of the rest of the worlds”-belief:
We tend to think, we hold the solution to anything in our human hands. Or in case we don't, we'd have to invest all our time and energy to find a solution to save the world(s). Humans tend to suffer from (and indulge in) a weird brain- and ego-based hero complex.
We think we know what others would benefit of. We think we know, where and when we'd have to interfere. In fact this is what we do all the time: Interfering and intruding into others' spheres.
What if … what is happening now and then in the shape of natural catastrophes, also in the disguise of viciously invisible virus ventures, are a way to communicate?
A non-human wake-up-call to change our views, to sacrifice our modern worlds king(s)?
To sacrifice the king of human supremacy in its various shades and colors?
This sacrifice would imply to find ways to rather communicate with the Other before taking action for or against them. It'd imply to question human moves and judgements before they are executed and brought into the world(s).
Holding back and communication instead of constant interference.
Yes – in the midst of a severe crisis this might sound terribly misplaced. Now its all about ensuring survival and minimizing damages, first.
But at some point this crisis will be overcome. Then this would be a great time to try and rethink human takes and roles in a modern world … towards a world-tree with many leaves and branches.
© Ann-Uta Beißwenger, 5thof April 2020.
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