Liebe Blog-Besucher/innen,

Dear visitors of my blog,

 

herzlich willkommen in meinem Blog! Welcome to my blog!
 

Cause my paralyzes and pains got too threatening and to avoid a paraplegia, I had to undergo an upper spine-surgery on Monday 8th of June. I thought I was on track again ...

 

But on Friday I took an ordinary walk and my right leg slipped due to dusty dry earth and my legs and the rest of me slipped downhill, several meters. I know from Ninjutsu how to fall, and I don't have any outer injuries inspite of rolling over several times ... However some hours later I realized, paralyzes started to return and incredible pain in legs, arms/hands and ... in the upper spine.

Had a horrifying dream (at least I thought it was "just" a typical drama-queen-dream) of how one of the implanted cages was breaking into my vertebral body and dangling on the other side. Well, it wasn't just a dream but a vision as has shown in hospital.

 

So I will need another spine-surgery on Friday 3rd of July and a long recovery time with my new "stiff-neck-friend". Seems, that, after all, I had a lot of "luck" ... I was told today, this fall could have easily been my last or have led straight into tetra-/paraplegia.

 

Anyhow ... wishing I had not chosen to take a walk last Friday.

This is the power of fate and now I know what the "Blasted Oak" in my Greenwood-reading was trying to tell me ... a (too) late insight however ... ;).

 

In terms of blogging and composing ... please bear with me, light a candle here and there for my smooth recovery, if you feel inclined to do so ... hoping to survive and recover soon, YES!

 

Also, I do not know how to pay my upcoming bills, as due to Corona and now due to my spine-problems I was/am not able to perform live-music, -poetry and -rituals nor give readings ... but I do have a lot of additional medical bills to deal with. I'd be grateful if you could support my survival with a donation! After my recovery I will be more than ready and happy to continue working for you ... that is providing readings/counselling/lectures and of course blog-entries. This however will require some time and homepage-updating, which won't be possible for me at the moment.

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Thank you!

 

Photos © Ann-Uta Beißwenger 2020: 1. Taken from Greenwood-Tarot by Mark Ryan and Chesca Potter 1996. 2. AnU with stiff-neck-friend 2nd of July 2020

 

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Lyrical: Lost in a haze

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Lost in a haze

 

That day

I went

Got lost

In a haze

Changed

My path

My way

Crisscrossed

The shade

Turning

It

 

Upside

Down

In me

The wheel

Turning

Causing

My fear

To frown

Bow down

In front

Of me

It

 

Took me

By surprise

Saw the

Awkward

Sun rise

In spite

Of

The dark

I beheld

And got

Lost

In a

Twilight

Haze

 

That one

Day

Changed

My path

My way

Turned

Myself

Into my own

Effigy

Made out

Of

Stubborn

Clay

 

Got lost

The other

Day

Me and my

Effigy

In a

Shining blaze

Of a

Fuzzy haze

Created

By no one

Than me

 

 

 

© Ann-Uta Beißwenger 2016

 

 

Kleine Vokabelnachhilfe:

haze: Dunst, Nebel

effigy: Abbild

 

 

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