Cause my paralyzes and pains got too threatening and to avoid a paraplegia, I had to undergo an upper spine-surgery on Monday 8th of June. I thought I was on track again ...
But on Friday I took an ordinary walk and my right leg slipped due to dusty dry earth and my legs and the rest of me slipped downhill, several meters. I know from Ninjutsu how to fall, and I don't have any outer injuries inspite of rolling over several times ... However some hours later I realized, paralyzes started to return and incredible pain in legs, arms/hands and ... in the upper spine.
Had a horrifying dream (at least I thought it was "just" a typical drama-queen-dream) of how one of the implanted cages was breaking into my vertebral body and dangling on the other side. Well, it wasn't just a dream but a vision as has shown in hospital.
So I will need another spine-surgery on Friday 3rd of July and a long recovery time with my new "stiff-neck-friend". Seems, that, after all, I had a lot of "luck" ... I was told today, this fall could have easily been my last or have led straight into tetra-/paraplegia.
Anyhow ... wishing I had not chosen to take a walk last Friday.
This is the power of fate and now I know what the "Blasted Oak" in my Greenwood-reading was trying to tell me ... a (too) late insight however ... ;).
In terms of blogging and composing ... please bear with me, light a candle here and there for my smooth recovery, if you feel inclined to do so ... hoping to survive and recover soon, YES!
Also, I do not know how to pay my upcoming bills, as due to Corona and now due to my spine-problems I was/am not able to perform live-music, -poetry and -rituals nor give readings ... but I do have a lot of additional medical bills to deal with. I'd be grateful if you could support my survival with a donation! After my recovery I will be more than ready and happy to continue working for you ... that is providing readings/counselling/lectures and of course blog-entries. This however will require some time and homepage-updating, which won't be possible for me at the moment.
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Photos © Ann-Uta Beißwenger 2020: 1. Taken from Greenwood-Tarot by Mark Ryan and Chesca Potter 1996. 2. AnU with stiff-neck-friend 2nd of July 2020
Past the Crossroads (The Sorcerer Part One) - Sketch for film music project ...
Am studying a lot these days (and nights). Trying to manifest what I learn about mixing and technical stuff into my current projects ... one huge and still beginner-level piece of work is my film-music-project. So here comes a rather rough composition, accompanying Sorcerer when he has passed the crossroads and the Nornir/Fates stand aside, veiled in clouds and foggy sceneries to watch (and manipulate) his steps. During the icy nights of an icelandic winter he has to get his guts and courage and desperation fixed to journey to the sacred island in the north ... he does not know though, that something is following him on his path ... likewise desperated and past its crossroads as himself ...
Multilayered composition and I had some "almost-nervous-breakdowns" during my various attempts to get the different rhythmic patterns together and somewhat "fitting to one another" *argx. Theoretically it is pretty easy in Logic as long as it is a Midi-file/-track. But it was not easy at all mainly due to latency-impact and my visionary stubborness wanting to add FX (effects) stuff here and there (and not wanting to spread them across the whole track). I have learnt a lot out of that ... not only techniquewise, also "novelwise" as creating sounds for my novel-characters opens new pathways to communicate with them and understand their storylines more deeply.
For the blogversion I added a track of solo tenor-flute ... (real flute). Recorded live with Logic Pro X.
Please note and respect: Tenor flute, Synth, Composition, Arrangement, Mix © Ann-Uta Beißwenger 2019
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